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>2 weeks holidays full of degeneracy, whores and booze
and i literally had enough already. goddamn why does pleasure have to get boring so fucking quick? i feel empty and worn out lads.

deep depression before sleep and insomnia. i been suffering from this shit for a decade. is it adhd related? i simply dont want the day to end and get all melancholic and shit. i dont wanna keep living like this

when you bust a nut into your 11/10 model gf you will come to your senses anyways and realise it aint shit

when you eat your 11/10 sashimi king lobster you will feel full and it will turn to shit you shit out anyways

im 24 now and the hedonic treadmill got me all the way fucked up. your baseline happiness simply adjusts overtime and everything fancy becomes normal and you are back to feeling like shit. i did it all, bought it all, ate it all, fucked them all and im as miserable as ever. i think about suicide almost daily. the biggest blackpill is that there is no difference between a homeless man eating trash and a billionare on a yacht eating super fine de claire oysters.

the only thing which legit makes me cope and not think about death is a puppy i bought 2 months ago. coming home and seeing him smile is better than doing bolivian coke and fucking romanian prostitutes or playing mini golf with muh perfect qt gf but its only this much i can cope.

i need help lads. i dont know what the fuck to do. everything i worked and wished for as a child turned out to be a big lie.