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Salary: $71,750 /year ($1380 a week)

After taxes and insurance $936 take home

After child support $598 take home. ($338/wk for one child)

After the loans I have to pay back from the divorce and custody battle along with my student loans: $298 ($1300 a month/ $300 a week)

After my mortgage $11.00 ($1250 a month / $
$287 a week)

That's $11 a week for food, water, electricity, clothes, gas, etc.

I am thinking of selling / giving away my belongings and buying a gun and ending it all. The only way to survive is to take out more debt. I was considering just running away and hiking until I ran out of food or just offing myself.

My ex hardly even let's me see my kid. What's the point?

Pic attached is from the beach the other day. I walked until it was dark out and then dove into the ocean at night time, wishing I would drown. The other water was freezing.

What the fuck do I do? I want to die. I've been thinking about ways to do it. I've never done heroin but I could just buy a lot and go out in a beautiful dream.