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>>55238116
Today's my birthday

>>50361783

Not great, I had a good job but my autism crept up along with my shitty health and I ragequit when I could have played the system.
Now I'm having a meltdown emotionally although I'm keeping it well hidden.

I have nothing left and nothing to look forward too, I think I have a jaw infection that's causing my teeth to fall apart, the pain is the worst thing I've ever felt, although the antibiotics are helping it's also causing me to shit my brains out.

Ontop of all that fairly sure I got cancer but that's another story, I tried gardening but fucking deer ate everything and I just spent the last of my money on a shitty fence to keep them out, currently listening to 90's music to keep my sanity in check but it won't last.

My cat is sleeping on my lap but I know in a few weeks time my power will probably be shut off and I'm going to slide backward from my depression and autism keeping me paralyzed in a state where I can't do anything and my motivation has bottomed out because I relapsed after over a decade of being sober because I was hoping I would have a heart attack and die which almost worked, but only just made me want to eat healthy because that was the worst pain besides my teeth I've felt.

>tldr I'm gonna die of a heart attack from my shitty life.