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I'm having a really hard time.

I keep getting told by doctors my structural kyphosis isn't severe enough for surgery, but cosmetically it's obvious the back of my neck and back is bent. I'm still working on new appointments because I think I qualify to be diagnosed with Schuermann's as three of my vertebrate are significant wedged. The x-rays all show loss of disc height, but because there's no fracture or it worsening (quickly), it's incredibly difficult fighting to get surgery to correct the curve.

Anyway, I've worked at the same desk job for 5 years always wearing layers and I desperately want to branch out but I've reached the point where I can't stand being in my body and only leave the house if I absolutely have to (before caronavirus for work and groceries, etc).

If you were at work and you saw someone with a big hunched neck and back what would you think? Am I just cursed or should I pretend everything is okay to look for a new job somewhere else?

I am so uncomfortable but I have developed enough skills to look for other jobs, my problem is I am so incredibly deformed I feel like a freak all the time and I have to keep working to make a living. I'm already planning on any new interviews saying outright what my physical limitation is instead of trying to hide it at my present job.