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I just want to escape this living hell. I want the demons to be cast back into the fire and for life to be pleasant again. I fear the end is coming for certain family members and I want to be safe and know that I'll always be safe before even harsher tragedy hits. I want to be able to run away from it all at a moments notice without fear and agony. I wish God would save me already. The luxury, the women, the traveling, the hobbies are all second to just already having that tangible assurance that I'm never going to be dragged down by a fault that isn't my own.

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I'm so scared of becoming rich. I want nothing more than to make it, and to help set my family up for the rest of their lives... I definitely don't want to be poor. But I fear I may become even more alone than I am now. I don't have drive to be near others even throw I crave it. I can't relate to anyone at Church because every other word out of my mouth is profanity and the people who do speak like me disgust me with their lack of vision and distorted world view. Not to mention I'm incredibly INCREDIBLY dumb, shy and simple spoken. I fear I'll just be inside a mansion all alone, curled up in a ball crying and frozen stiff. But I'd rather be there in that mansion or penthouse crying than doing the same as a poor man in my fathers household. I'd love a wife, but what woman would want me? Even all the money in the world won't makeup for how boring and quiet I am. And when I WAGMI, I especially don't want to be here on 4chan or other internet hangouts... But it's been my safe haven and it's all that I know. I'd like to believe I'd fill my time with hobbies and travel and I'd like to think the woman I'm texting right now would gladly get into a relationship with me. But something inside me broke a long time ago and all I can do is pray that there's enough money in the world to repair my spirit.