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>>57555873
Me and my dad had a very complicated relationship. He provided for me heavily financially, but socially was absent and somewhat detrimental. A lot of negative talk that to this day I'm still trying to get rid. I have to work extra hard not to blame him since you probably got it from his father. I take it as a challenge to beat my bad mental patterns I learned. Anyways, we never had a "friend" relationship so we don't talk about deeper topics. I'm grateful for him though. My life could have gone a lot worse had he not been there to keep me in line.

So for the past 5 years I have been going to the gym and building my body and before this I was a scrawny kid like 5'11" at 100lbs.

I was a hard gainer, meaning I had to be drinking mass gainers on top of my daily 8 meals consisting of mostly rice and chicken breast to see any kind of gains at all

Everything was going well, I had some newbie gains for the first 2 years, gained some 40-50lbs of a mixture of lean muscle, fat and water retention weight.

I started plateauing after the 2nd year and having diminishing return is the most demotivating thing in the gym. My muscles aren't growing anymore but instead it just got harder and drier, it looks good, but like many in the gym, I wanted to get bigger.

I started using steroids and hormones to break my genetic barrier. I was stacking 300mg of sustanon + 250mg of deca weekly while frontloading dbol.

Things were going great on my 12 weeks of cycle. I actually gain another 20lbs of lean muscle mass. My biggest mistake though, was blowing all of my money on the steroid cycle and not have any left for PCT. I was hoping that my body would bounce back from the suppression on its own since it is my first cycle ,which honestly is the most stupidest thing I thought was possible.

After about a month of stopping the cycle, I crashed and burn. I was so depressed and lethargic that I had to seek professional help. After doing some bloodwork, doctors told me my test level is that of a female toddler and that I need to get on TRT. I was honestly living paycheck to paycheck at the point and had no idea how I could afford a TRT. My sex drive at this point was so low that I think the semen from my previous masturbation is starting to crawl its way back to my ball sac

I was on the verge of suicide, until I saw something online, something that would change my life forever. A project name tw33t.money with 99 eth hardcap, 1 eth per person and a deflationary token.

Got whitelisted and got a boner immediately with my depression cured

Guys I joined the gym after not training for so long. You know the Test-E year round cyclers that are swole and grunt when they lift? I used to think they were cool but now I can't take them seriously knowing they are likely poor with no crypto bags and the gym is the only outlet they have in life.

How to cure feeling smug all the time? Am I deluded?