/3/ - 3DCG

There's this competition going on for beginner artists only and it has completely blackpilled me. Over time, I've learned modeling, UV unwrapping, texturing and rendering and I have completed workflows before. But my work just... sucks. Which would be understandable, except I've been using Maya for probably over 2 years now.

It's not like I don't want to do 3D or my heart's not in it, I do actually really enjoy it and I want to get good at it. But then I stop and look at my work and it looks frankly embarrassing for someone of my age and length of education/experience to have made and no matter how many tutorials I watch and models I try to make, I'm not improving. I'm not exactly staying in my comfort zone either, I try different features on Maya and learn more about what it's capable of (I've definitely learned by now if Maya seems "inconvenient" then there's probably a feature that does exactly what I'm looking for somewhere) and when I restart a model I fucked, I try doing it a different way, but I literally can't do it. I can have a front and side reference for a character and be unable to model it properly. Just... unable. I couldn't tell you why.

People younger than me and with half or less the experience are producing work that looks like the professional industry stuff on Artstation. I've been reading up and apparently the average person masters Maya by 4 months of use. I mean christ. Am I just sub-zero IQ? I don't want to give up, but is it possible to just be born incapable of learning something? This is the only place I know that'll tell me the unfiltered truth.

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