/3/ - 3DCG

my father has been a narcissist wifebeater for my whole life. For whatever reason he doest beat my mom physcially anymore, im 30, they are 60. But there were plenty of instamces growing up where i have been cowering in horror as my moms head is bleeding all over the kitchen over some meaningless bullshit. She is a shell of a human.

I have never been able to have a good relationship with him. Anytime we spend more than 10minutes with eachother i cannot handle the way he is and end up exploding. Then i am the "crazy one". How am i supposed to not explode at this fucking asshole when he is constantly exhibiting some of the mlst disgusting interpersonal behavior such as...
> never taking accountability for anything
> constantly abuses my mom (shes just a fucking slave
>"get me this" "do this" "WTF you did it wrong! "WTF you didnt do it exactly the way I wanted!" "NO I wanted the other thing not this, moron!
>while he sits on his ass and barks orders
>constantly disagrees with anyhting anyone tells him
>he is always "right"
>Always acting entitled in public situations, thinks he deserves special treatment from staff in restuarants and stores, making scenes because he is right and they are wrong
>always making sick little jokes about peoples insecurities or weaknesses

I just cant fucking deal with this guy. The only solution i have found that works is cutting him out of my life. Then after a few weeks i try to reconnect and make things better, and it always devolves into shit... i fucking hate this cycle.. I just want to get along with him because "hes my dad" but it just seems impossible....

Wtf am i supposed to do....